When I look at you, your honey eyes

Know everything about me –

How I was lost and then you found me

Near the green field of our teens.

I think it's the last two seconds of being with him.

I'm not afraid of passing away, for I've already experienced it.

When I was fourteen, there was a physical loss of myself.

But if I leave, will you be there with me?

Long ago, I was alone and abandoned.

Now, I need someone to help me and take me with him.

I got _____ and then gave myself two seconds to cry,

Went to the riverside, wanted to be with the fishes,

Swim with them till the end of my life.

But that day, it was already done.

After that, I haven’t played in the sand nor swam

With persons I thought were close to me.

Everything changed, and that unhealed wound made me dive so deep,

But then a white light pierced through the blue

And led me out.

That was the moment when I realized

I needed something big to live for.

That was when I felt what it's like to be frozen –

Something goes inside and takes who you wanted to be.

Hope is already lost,

And all I had was to live like a reflection of me.

There is no sign of being loved forever;

It's like you are cursed.

I can tell it to no one because who's

Going to believe it wasn’t my choice,

That thing that hurts you inside, in your heart.

A horrible experience when you are seeking for help

But there's no one to help you and take you

Out from this unbearable reality.

All you have to do is stay calm and act like nothing wrong happened

On that night.

I thought you could help me to be born again after a long year.

You sent me a text, but I could not read what you wrote me on the telephone.

I gave myself a second and the last 2 seconds to cry.

After that, you disappeared like the wind on a summer night,

and then they found my deceased body near the place you left burned.